hephaestion2014's blog

Wrestling is a funny thing. So many people to beat, so little time ;-)

But in the UK, everyone is spread over the place and because our public transport is woeful here that unless you drive, a lot of people that you want to take on, you can't. Seriously, it's easier for me to get to Manchester/Stoke/York than it is to get to Cambridge/Nottingham.

Putting all those new challenges aside, there are also the people that you have met that you want to take on again ... but rematches worry me.

When you were a kid, I'm sure that you all had a favourite tv show/film that you loved and would have watched for hours on end. I have a couple. Then one day whilst browsing the web, you come across it again, give it a look and ... you really used to like it? The special effects that were so dazzling was a polystyrene rock and everything seemed to be filmed in the same overcast quarry and as for the acting ... its a crappy second first impression.

I have that worry with rematches. I know I've only been on here two years, and it sounds like I should be writing this after five/six years but I have had some incredible matches on here. Ones that I smile just thinking about, then grimace as I remember the aches and pains after, then smile again.

Trouble is, some matches were so good that I worry that if the rematch isn't as good (Man, I've put on weight since then) that it might tarnish the happy memory of what have been golden matches. Not Golden because I necessarily won, but golden because they pushed me forward, I learnt something about myself and wrestling.

Now, I know I shouldn't worry about this too much as I have repeated wrestles with a fair few guys and enjoyed them just as much, if not sometimes more - less nervous, more relaxed and can get rougher.

Perhaps I should stop worrying about things that might happen, and more worry about things that won't happen because I'm worried that something may happen ;)

I don't know, maybe I live in my head too much thinking and worrying about things.