TakeThePunchesAI's blog

Hey guys. So I thought this I'm about to share would be a great life philosophy and a great moment for everybody to learn about the real me.

So I joined this site back in November, as we came into 2021 I did land my first match. A little after the that somebody invited me to the chat. I was never on there before so I gave it a try. I ended up really enjoying it so I was on there all the time. I enjoyed the different people, I enjoyed asking questions. Sone of the random PM'S... not so much, just saying, lol. Overtime I thought It was welcoming and open and fun. But overtime, I began to feel a different energy in people on there. Like you cross a boundary or two, or three, or... and you just have it happen here and there, then it happens every other week. Then you have people coming and telling you you're annoying and then people Pming you and telling you you're annoying and how a group of people talk about it and all if this. The later is a fresh incident I'm referring too. And the sad part is, I was the one trying to defuse the situation, but I was the target and then I realized that my presence is bothersome to people. And then I thought maybe I was keeping people from being on the chat regardless of whether I did anything wrong. So I decided to simply step away and not be on there anymore.

Whether a chat, at your job, in a group, in your relationship, or ect. Never be afraid to step way from the situation, it's Okay. Do I like being on there, yeah. Did I want to keep being on there, yeah. But, why go on there and be viewed as something you're not and deal with all the unnecessary comments? Why deal with such energy that's not productive and not a reflection of who you are and what you deserve. Like you don't have to deal with that.

People see a certain look on someone and they see the character of the person and they think it applies to everyone who looks similar to this character. So, my body. The reason I look like I look is not to be thirsted over or to project myself as better or more important than anybody. I got my body here because I've battled depression since I was 12 due to traumatic family issues combined with lack of confidence. In my early 20s while in college, my mental foundation was crumbling, it was falling apart and I found myself contemplating suicide and being sure of it and it scared me. So I started exercising mainly to settle my mind and to keep me as far away from those dark thoughts as I can. It keeps me sharp, kept my mind active, keeps me striving towards something.

So those of you that make comments about me being arrogant and full of myself, not the cause at all. These last three years my dad (who's in his early 50s) has been on a downward spiral (chronic drinking) since his mother died. So much so, I've been paying on an insurance policy. Just here recently, my dad got released from the hospital because he almost died... again. The same dad who made me feel like shit, made me feel inadequate, that thought I was a "faggot" just because I was interested in doing something besides sports.

And yet when I was on the chat, I have people making me out to be somebody else. Well, this is the real me. And because I know who that real me is, I can step away from a situation I know I don't deserve to deal with. I encourage you all to do the same.